If I had my ideal life at this very moment, I don’t think I’d even want to work in an office. I’d want to do all of my work from my own cute little office (or living room, dining room, bedroom) in a cozy pad. I’m always thinking about which San Francisco neighborhood I’d like to live in once I save up enough money and have that full-time job I’m constantly coveting, but I’m fickle (Plus, my ideal spots are only based on location, aesthetics, and environment and not practical reasons like if I can actually afford it). Ideally, I’d like to work from home, and be able to spend more time on this blog — sharing, talking to all of you, making it pretty and meaningful and consistent, and growing an audience.
I saw a therapist for the first time in about three or four years last week, as a follow-up to some anxiety issues I experienced in the past couple of months. One thing she helped me realize is that I don’t have that “me time” everyday. If you know me, you know how it’s been: work, job hunt, clean the house and help the family, meet deadlines for other sites I write for and other projects going on. I just want to be everything to everybody and I can’t really do “me.”
But seriously, what is “me time” for me? Is it spending hours on end catching up with my social media feeds? Is it zoning out and watching the game on TV or Netflix? Is it taking a nap that becomes actual sleep after just spending about an hour awake? If that truly is my “me time,” then I’ve actually been doing maybe a little bit too much of it. But now that I’ve thought about it, it’s not fulfilling—they’re things I feel like I have to do, to get my news fix or do something completely mindless after a long day of work. They sometimes deprive me of my productivity, hence stress building up from not being able to do what needs to get done. If dedicating more time to my blog was “me time,” would it truly free my soul or eventually be something that becomes another obligation and a stress factor? I’m not sure, but gosh darn, I’d like to try! My therapist suggested that maybe going out just to write about more things on my blog could be my “me time.”
I’m still thinking about it but what I do know for sure is that I need to stop being so damn whiny about not having enough time and make the time to be a better blogger. So yup, that’s what I’m going to do. I’ll say it with more conviction: THAT’S WHAT I’M GOING TO DO!
Plus, I’ve been thinking a lot about what I’d like to do here and I want to set those plans into motion: More regular features to keep y’all tuned in (That I want to actually go through with and not abandon), better photography by me, and possibly a new look and new everything (Except the blog name, of course). But above all, I need to write, create, and share more and often and I’m going to find a way to make it as routine as taking showers and taking tinkles.
By the way, how was everyone’s Halloween? I dressed up as Belle from Beauty and the Beast and went to the ultra-trendy W Hotel San Francisco’s Haunted Hotel bash with my sister Minnie Mouse and best friend Evil Queen the weekend before. On actual Halloween day/night, I dressed up as Batgirl (No way was I going to ride BART and go to work in that sparkly, head-turning bright yellow princess getup) and went on a magnificent date involving party crashing and meeting up with friends at a bar.
In the near future (as in the next couple of months): Expect me to maybe write about things related to Thanksgiving and Christmas, getting my wisdom teeth extracted next week (AAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!! Can you tell I’m freaked out about it?), my new opportunity with CAAM (Center for Asian American Media, who I interned with last year), my Reno trip, and my first professional photoshoot as a grown-up.
Now, I beg the question: What do you do in your “me time”?
(PHOTO CREDITS: My Instagram | FP-Digital-Art on deviantART [featured image of Ninja, the cat])